gwen stefani - hollaback girl

actually, its been a while since i had a good post up. i guess i just havent had much inspiration lately. that plus things have been BUSY ...

its officially cramming time for finals ... which explains (of course) why im back writing here instead of studying right now! three out of the next four final exams will be cummulative. thats so gay. i have to pick and choose which classes to study for with the time constraints.

but the day my tests are over, i am soOOOoOoO in SOCAL - finally taking that well deserved break. itll only be a week but i think visiting the family (seeing my grandma! & relatives visting from the mothaland) will be awesome. i am NOT looking forward to a summer of anatomy, more chemistry, and calculus.

JENNA! I AM SO FREAKiN EXCiTED!!!!! YOU WiLL HAVE TO SEND ME PiCS KAAAAAAAY??!! THAT iS EXACTLY WHAT THiS LOVELY GROUP OF SiLLiES NEEDED! TWiNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH, iTS RiDiCULOUS HOW EXCiTED i AM!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT? iM GONNA CALL YOU! HOPE YOUR MOMMA AND THE REST OF THE FAMiLY BACK HOME iS DOiNG FABULOUS!! OH YEAH, & YOU GUYS SHOULD SOOOooOoO STOP BY FLORiDA THiS SUMMER!!!!!!!!!! =) LOVEYOOLOVEYOO!

so yeah. i get the urge to write in this at some of the most inopportune moments. like now as i waste valuable study time. theres so much that i want to share ... like tons. me and ryan write lists of EVERYTHiNG and ANYTHiNG we want to say to each other the next time we talk on the phone. it may sound dorky but we came up with this system coz i have THEEEE worst memory and i if i dont have stuff written down, id forget. i think i have to start doing that now coz theres just SOOOOOOOOOO much we all need to catch up on. i guess i just need to sort out all the stuff in my head right now and really just focus on school work ... JUST 4 MORE DAYS TO GO, JUST 4 MORE DAYS. during a study break, i filled this out from an email someone sent:

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: Gabby Minami-Rinkan (the earliest street i could remember!)
(Name of first pet / First street you lived on)

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: Candy David
(Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name)

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: Spring Sam Seltzer
(First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant)

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: Ginger Kowloon
(Favorite Spice / Foreign Vacation Spot)

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: Marjo Jojo Tumon
(Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied)

6. "FLY Girl" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): M. Ma
(First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name)

7. ICON ALIAS: Musketeer Lysol
(Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen)

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: Puppy Guam
(Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School)

9. BARFLY ALIAS: Cheeze-Its Sangria
(Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink)

10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: i dont have a middle name =(
(Middle Name / Street Where You Live)

it looked all fun at first but then i started filling it out for myself and my names ended up being stupid. haha. oh well. thats what i get for investing my time in something pretty stupid anyways. hahaha ... hope you more have fun trying it yourself!

oh yeah. im working on copping some tickets to jack johnson on september 6 (haha, "copping" is my most recently overused word). *aaaaahhhh* it is a dream of mine to steal my boyfriend away from the military for a couple of days and take him to the show. HE WOULD LOVE LOVE LOVE iT.

& speaking of music ... ever since joy told me about her Jewish friend's CD of a reggae-singing-Rabbi, and shortly after, seeing a blurb about the guy on Best Week Ever, i'VE BEEN iNSANELY FASCiNATED. its very fun to listen to. mostly i just like to dance and irritate joy or cj with my cool reggae dancing. haha .. so yeah, im trying to cop that cd too. haha

its been a while since i heard from anyone. hope its an indication of only good things!! i miss you guys so much! lemme know whats up.

miss you and love you all!

(yours truly, Miss Cheeze-Its Sangria! haha)

ready for the world - oh sheila

a dedication. to someone who needs it.

After a while, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning, company doesn’t mean security, kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today.
Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting or someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure ... that you really are strong.

And you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn ...

With every goodbye you learn.

love you and miss you all.