[ STRESSiNG OUT ] last week was really laid back ... i didnt work too hard coz the previous week was exams. so i treated myself to a week of being semi-off. so now last week is catching up with me and im stressing out. haha ... thats just another excuse for procrastination ... you'd think i'd learn huh? yep ive had almost every problem possible ... the printer was being MALAFUNKSHUN, ran out of paper, had to go to the campus library, then my disk wouldnt work - THE WHOLE DAMN NINE YARDS. and to top it off, it was raining. and everyday i bring my umbrella but today was the day i didnt. so im running in the rain to my psych professor's office because papers are due. and my paper is getting smudged ... and i cant find her office AND im late for another class. i dont understand ... ive been a good person lately. aarrrghhh ... just another one of those frustrating mondays.

i blame the suckiness on the weather. who's with me on this one?

[ NEW LAYOUT ] but anyways ... i was inspired by the Young Gunz song ... mahcus had it on his site ... and i used to go there just for the hell of being able to BiZZZOUNCE (haha) to that song. yep, shay, i went Gangsta on you guys. haha ... dont worry, this one's not gonna last too long. promise. i also added a whole grip (haha) of people's links coz yeah. been in contact with jenna finally! its nice hearing from that chick again! hope things get better with the stuck-ups! & shay called! haha ... finally ... she called my mom coz i wasnt home ... my mom said i was a "booger" coz thats what sheila said. spoke to mench too ... she sounds so damn homesick ... i feel sorry for her ... =( she told me about maryanne's thumb. haha ... send her props, give her some lovin.

[ HEY YAH! ] i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really like the Outkast video.

[ COLLEGE GOES ON ... ] for the most part, the washington kids finally started. ive been so excited for them! haha ... ives goes to school with shimizu ... small world ... & possible even jan michael ... haha ... iVES, REMEMBER WHAT i DARED YOU TO DO! haha ... im hooked on Sorority Girls ... haha ... drama man ... sounds familiar. its so petty but i cant stop watching it ... kinda like how you didnt know Jessica Simpson could be THAT DAMN ANNOYING and yet you cant change the channel whenever Newlyweds comes on. haha ... joy's been working on her liscence through online driving school ... my dad's going to georgia for a week ... cj's gellin like a fellin ... and my mom works the nightshift at the marriott ... i dont even see her anymore ... only on like the weekends. and thats whats been up.

[ HAPPY THOUGHTS ] got an 87% on our first psych exam. our class average was 52% ... shitty huh? we went to this filipino party the other night ... man i miss those ... haha ... they busted out the VCD karaoke ... you cant have a filipino party without the karaoke. better yet ... PiRATED karaoke on VCDs buddy! haha ... driving the Civic is fun. seriously, you dont realize youre maxing 80 ... but i know better. =) haha ... JACK BLACK'S DIARY - its a must see. so is WHOOPY. that show is so funny. oh yeah and the final season of F*R*I*E*N*D*S started ... im gonna miss that. raise your hand if you want ROSS to end up with rachel! haha ... friendster is so funny ... i reunited with my old babysitter! haha ... she's like 24 or 25 now! haha ... my cousin kelvin and his family are coming over for christmas too! (ryan is too!) that means our holidays are gonna be KiCK-MOTHER-FCKiNG-ASS this year! haha ... cant wait ...

love you miss you all!

[ GRADUATiON ] i had lunch with my friend vivianna this week. she's so funny. this guy came up to our table asking where we were from. she's from columbia and im from the philippines/guam(?) so he starts talking to us with his latin accent. haha ... he kept talking and we just wanted to eat ... so when he finally left we were just making fun of him. haha ... nice guy, just kinda ... annoying? i dont know it was just really funny. then all of a sudden, she freaks out telling me about her first speeding ticket that she got. haha ... we both did! when i told her that i did too, the first thing we both said was "did you tell your parents?!" haha ... we both didn't. she pulled out this pile of junk mail from her bag. she said she runs to the mailbox everyday so her parents dont notice all the Traffic School Lawyers junk mail. haha ... that was so funny coz i have joy to get the mailbox before my parents do. but yeah ... i complete online traffic school ... yay! got my certificate and everything. i think im pretty much outta the clear ... *crosses-fingers&eyes* ... haha ... never again, buddy. so it takes me like 40 minutes to get to school now coz im really paranoid. pathetic, i know.

[ RiCE ROCKET ] my mom bought a new car. its a 2003 Honda Civic. joy really likes it ... she's gonna be driving that one soon. i guess its alright? Civic always remind me of like ... car shows? ... i guess thats not totally a bad thing ... but when i think of car shows and imports and the like, i just think of posers?! haha ... POSEURS! I think i liked the older version better ... the kinda America's family had when we used to live next to them in Big Navy. The best part is the 4 doors! haha ... man oh man ... its blue. i wanted white. just so it could match the hello kitty interior kit we got ... joy was sitting in the driver's seat. she wants to *h0ok it Up fO ShO - loWeR iT, blaCkligHTs, eN adD a d0pE @sS sySteM ForReAl - To mAke iT tYTe, yo* haha ... she didnt say THAT, of course. if she did i would slap her back to BROWN. she does want to fix it up though. all i wanna do is put my GUAM sticker on the back window. i cant on the Beamer coz theres this gay light on it ... oh well. enjoy. i suck at taking pictures of cars.

[ HAPPY THOUGHTS ] so its been a very good week. even Blogger's made my week. Free services is always a good thing! college? eh, its over-fucking-rated. but make sure you make it there, kiddies. we'll all have a party at FA-fucking-U. haha ... by the way, i made plenty of updates at the photo album ... feel free to waste some time and reminisce. whats up with all these people getting sued for downloading?! makes me paranoid ... wonder if its possible ... will they catch me?! thoughts a prayers go out to mahcus & mike: hope you and the family are ok after Hurricane Isabel came through. & CONGRATUMALATiONS to CHADO-SAN for passing his road test! woohoo! also before i go, i just wanna wish my babes a very happy birfday!

HAPPY BiRTHDAY, RYAN!
i wish i could be there to celebrate the occassion =(
love you, miss you! we'll have many more to look forward to!

[ TiCKETMASTER ] my week balance was $4,068.00. i should get a damn commission for selling so many tickets. everyone was buying last minute tickets for the Aerosmith/KISS/Saliva concert & the Dashboard Confessional show in Pompano ... geeze i should really get my locations figured out - i just realized that Sound Advice was where we went fo the 4th of July. ok - my rambling to myself. im still deciding whether i should see the Ataris ... they're playing at FAU and its free for students Vendetta Red is playing too ... hmmmmm ... all the older people at work call them the ah-ta-rhis, as opposed to the a-tar-ees ... cracks me up, those old people! haha ...

[ BOGGLE YA MiNDS ] Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. - especially for crihs clvao.

[ SCANTRONS ] school this week went by really fast ... nothing exciting. in fact, its gotten to a point where things have been less than satisfying. im not challenged anymore. liberal arts really isnt my thing but thats what you get when you go into education and the sort. actually, you cant really help but run into it in college anyways. but yeah. i figured out my plan. ill let you know it next semester. haha ... definitely gonna take MORE classes. to the seniors this year: dont let academic advisors in college scare you. its all part of this big conspiracy to make you stay at their school longer. which equates to them making more money off of you. so our first exams are coming up next week and its gay how we have to take them on scantron sheets - that is those official answer sheets similar to the answer sheets you use on the Terra Novas ... you know, the fill in the correct bubble. so we have to pay for the sheets ... GAYGAYGAY ... as if im not broke enough. but Student Government gives them out for free (no one told us, you have to find out for yourself) ... my plan is to stop by next week and pick up a whole stash for the rest of the year! haha ...

[ HURT ] johnny cash died. i think its almost creepy how the lyrics related to him so damn well.

i hurt myself today / to see if i still feel / i focus on the pain / the only thing that's real / the needle tears a hole / the old familiar sting / try to kill it all away / but i remember everything

what have i become? / my sweetest friend / eryone i know / goes away in the end / you could have it all / my empire of dirt / i will let you down / i will make you hurt

i wear my crown of thorns / on my liar's chair / full of broken thoughts / i cannot repair / beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears / you are someone else / i am still right here

if i could start again / a million miles away / i would keep myself / i would find a way

to think. there is so much beauty to find in pain.

[ HAPPY THOUGHTS ] switching over to lighter subjects: Anniversary cards from Ryan! & the many happy anniversary greetings from everyone! - thanks so much! sorry for not being able to email this week - chado, i will get to it! miss you too! JENNA! hey buddy! get in touch as soon as you can ... i wanna tell you all about my victor-look-alike encounters! haha ... hey gee! nice hearing from you! college is fun! hope you're doing well! sheila! where are you?! even bigger question: LiSA!! WHERE ARE YOU?! rem - just wanted to say hi, miss you too! karlo, i will send out those copies ... uhm ... soon ... yeah! & kev, it was awesome talking to you, as usual! gosh ... so much to say ... i forgot it all. i wanted to see once upon a time in mexico but ryan made me feel dumb for not seeing desperado first ... but yes, im still sticking to my *JOHNNY DEPP is a hott one* opinion ... hi ives! schools starting soon! im excited for you guys in WA! lemme know how it goes!

to the rest, you know how it goes: love you, miss you all! HOLLA! haha ...

[ HELLO AGAIN ] so i changed the layout because sheila insisted. - at the cost of 3 hours of homework time. GREAT. happy now?! haha ... actually, im in a terrible mood. had so many ups and downs this week its not even funny. for the good news, got a call from karlo and we discussed college plans. hopefully he'll make it to FAU ... then ryan will come down and live here in florida too. then chris calvo sent me the funniest jokes. then alonzo wrote me a REAL letter! haha ... he said he sends the forwards out because he wants good luck. then maHHHHcus got in touch ... looks like VA is doing him some good. he's coming to florida for a basketball tournament two frikking summers from now. and ms. k, ms. sablan, mr. villines, & mr. milligan emailed to see how i was doing. awww ... they're nice. & jenna came back!!. man, girl, im so glad to heard from you again. we DO have to talk! its been forever! enjoy your surf trip while you can! college is crazy! hope you dont get stuck with a SUPER WEiRDO LESBiAN ROOMMATE! haha ... miss you! so yeah ... i think im up to date with my "KEEPiNG iN TOUCHES" ...

[ THE BAD NEWS ] so me and joy went out the other day. i didnt realize how fast i was going and before you know it, im being pulled over by the biggest jerk-officer in america. ive never gotten a ticket before ... oh, except for earlier this week when i parked in a Faculty lot at school (son of a bitch, they should make that sign bigger! grrr...). but yeah, i was freaking out, almost hyper-ventilating, and THIS CLOSE to crying. but the FUCKING FUCK gave me a ticket - $147.00 because i was like 15 over the speed limit ... big fucking deal. i wasnt the only one dammit ... something about the RED CAR attracts them like no other ... haha ... sheila, i wish you were here to scold me or tell me what to do ... which brings me to my predicament. i have the money to pay the fine, no biggie. but should i tell my parents or not? SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!! dont you hate when one little thing can ruin such a positive streak?!

[ HAPPY THOUGHTS ] you know me, on top of everything, i'll try to stay optomistic. so i thought i'd leave you once again with the happier things. (by the way, my comments thing is down for a few days) here's some of those jokes chris sent:

where does the king keep his little armies?
up his little sleevies

why do gorillas have big nostrils?
cause they have big fingers

whats brown and sticky?
a stick

haha ... i thought they were funny at least. another significance to the layout: tuesday, september, 9, 2003 is mine and ryan's 1 year anniversary! long distance relationships WILL work ... if you're willing to work for it. and in our case, its been worth everything! even now, im as happy as i was when we were first together ... he's my number one! i love you ryan! here's to many more! awwww ... YOU ARE MY NUMBER ONE - SMASHMOUTH

when im finally gone, im gonna be gone without a trace / theres a lot of good times ahead before we're done / and on top of this list of things before i leave this place / you are my number one

love you, miss you all.