i AM BEREH BEREH SNEAKY

weekend: MAN OH MAN. THAT WAS A CLOSE ONE. iTS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN AGAiN ... THATS FOR SURE. GETTiNG AWAY WiTH MURDER iS SO MUCH HARDER THAN YOU REALiZE. THE ONLY THiNG i CAN SAY ABOUT THE EVENTS OF LAST NIGHT WAS THAT EVERYTHiNG WAS MEANT TO BE. THAT iS ACTUALLY WHAT WAS SCARiER THAN KNOWiNG HOW MUCH TROUBLE i COULD HAVE BEEN iN.

monday: spent the entire day being paranoid ... being afraid to go home coz what if some evidence popped up that i couldnt explain? spent the day not wanting to go back from practice. came up with so many alibies ... even though i was never good at lying in the first place.

did my math homework in Jap class as usual. a new sensei might be in this week. that means ill have to start doing my math homework at home. told chargo the story ... he laughed at me ... i laughed at myself. comforting. very comforting. DL class went by fast ... because our school is classified as DDESS, we were five weeks behind on work. im gonna start doing some stuff at home ... on weekends ... coz im a loser like that. lunch was cold ... haha ... i told the SUPER-ONE-MAN my story ... and was shaking ... coz it was cold. and coz i was like scared or something. from then on i was even more paranoid. man it was hard consentrating all day. i ate school lunch for the first time this year. it was alright. i think i was too distracted to taste what i was eating though. studied for math last minute coz we still havent taken that test that we need to take on chapter 1. get to class and the sub doesnt make us take the test. still had chem to go. crashed into this heffer on the way coz i was in a hurry(?) ... damn those sharp turns ... haha ... she was way taller in real life! haha ... remember that connie?! =P mr. mesa gave us a free period to study and get last minute work done. geeze if i had known that i would have not done my homework this weekend. so i had nothing to do. took a 15 minute "bathroom break" and checked out baskwill's AP Rocket Science class. wow! there were 3 people in there! so i chilled with alonzo jenna and ivey for a while. i needed to get back to class before anyone missed me (haha) ... so i went back and everyone was still doing nothing ... so i asked mr. mesa if i could spend the last hour "talking to the counselor" ... so yeah i went back to baskwill's. hey ivey! how did the whole christianity thing come up AGAiN?! dude i swear all this talk i been involved in about religion and stuff while at school is really weird ... almost coincidental ... haha ... i wanna convert now! seriously ... just to go to a Christian chruch i mean. *sigh* ... i feel like a traitor or something ... oh then we talked about the weekend and how fun bowling was. dude, it was really fun! haha ... baskwill said that if we started a bowling team for our school he'd sponsor it ... sounds dorky but playing is hella fun! especially if youre with youre friends! and if baskwill would sponsor it! coolman ... it was just varsity practice today. to me it was boring ... glad we didnt do any conditioning though ... varsity level shouldnt be spending so much time practicing offense positioning. we're getting new uniforms soon ... what else?! #17 MARJO ... everyone was arguing over whether to use spandex or not! haha ... eeee ... spandex! it even looks ugly on type! haha ... SHiEH tournament might be this weekend ... last years own was so awesome coz they had this whole tribute to GUAM HiGH because of our parents fighting for the country or some crap. no, not pity stuff ... but they did give us that super cool blue and yellow ball that SHOULD be the pride and joy of our sad little trophy case ... but then again ... if that goes down this weekend, our tarague plans might be delayed till the next three-day weekend ... oh but wait, thats fine with me ... senior pics are on the 6th ... we have a game that day! YEEAAHHH BUDDY! i heard there was about 30 people going out for the squad today. YEEEEAAAH-FUCKiNG-RiiiiiiTE ... theyre prolly only doing it coz we looked so good last year! haha ... and coz theyre cool with ms. withrow ... and captain is gonna be chosen by vote this year ... thats sad coz you have all these friends who are joining together and you know the captain will end up being an inexperienced loud mouth ... sorry but i think thats true. i want danielle or casey to be it ... they deserve it ... im talkin, three years of experience deserve it ... plus i dont think i could stand it if anyone else were. speaking of danielle, she's back and in my math class! WELCOME BACK DANiELLE! hmmm ... wonder how long davis is gonna be out ... wondering how long we could pull off getting 100's on each homework assignment ... wonder why he's gone anyways ... haha ...

tuesday: and the only thing they said to me was ... YOURE OFF THE PHONE AND COMPUTER BY 10 ... ok. (that was always the rule anyways ...) OH YEAH, AND DONT SNEAK OUT ANYMORE. i DONT LiKE THAT ... ... whoa ... i didnt want to argue about that coz if a warning was all i was gonna get then why argue?! haha ... i AM BEREH BEREH SNEAKY ... haha ... (Mr. Deed's style) ... told chargo the repercussions of the other day. we laughed again. we're gonna laugh about it tomorrow in class too. guys, dont be like me ... see why i need to change my religion?! haha ...

the bus ride today seemed longer than usual. got to school and found out it was running on generator since 4:30 in the morning. our class went down to the cafeteria coz it was cooler ... a whole bunch of classes were there too and ms. rubio made the announcement that if the power didnt come back on, school would be dismissed at 10:30. tried to sneak out of english class ... haha ... coz im sneaky! haha ... but got caught making faces at joy through mr. szafranski's door. dammit ... she brought her guitar today and we were trying to get it but her teacher was being a prick. all basement classes had to go to the cafeteria coz there was no light down ther so we just chilled. mr. dequina was showing us his magic tricks again ... then he showed us some puzzles ... but david isnt a puzzler ... haha ... its funny how he has his own sense of logic. dude that guy ... then all of a sudden the whole religion thing came up AGAiN! see ivey ... things are just getting so weird ... like now more than ever i dont want to go to the church that my family goes to ... i just dont know how to tell them ... i mean, how are you supposed to break TRADiTiON?! were were talking about being saved and the things you must do ... follow the Bible because its just the basic guidelines to getting into heaven. i dont even follow those ... and i know that ... i consciously know that ... and i want to change. crap ... you dont know all the guilt i felt when he said "YOUR CONSCiENCE WiDENS AS SOONS AS YOU LiE TO YOUR PARENTS, FOR iNSTANCE ... " man oh man ... the thoughts i leave with after a conversation like that ... geeze ... alonzo and ivey were cracking me up though when dequina brought up the suggestion of attending his church. we were all just talking about that stuff yesterday and baskwill and jenna were cracking on how weird UOG church is ... all this talk about Christianity is weird lately ... SOMEONE'S trying to tell me something ...

so half day went through and i was kinda sad coz i wanted to get our debate on in government. if we did have a whole day today, my classes woulda been chill. hope davis isnt gonna be back anytime soon. i dont plan on taking that test i forgot all about ... and i hope those guys can get out of class with the sub so my 7th period could be cool like ivey's 4th period yesterday. volleyball practice was cancelled (boo) so menchie suggested we go play volleyball at andersen. so ryan took me joy and marc to andersen ... waited around for me to work ... a whole what, 30 minutes? ... and stopped by to eat at the bowling alley ... saw the jessica's and invited them. the gym was alright. like no one showed up till maybe three or four hours later ... around the time we had to go ... but it was cool i guess. there was this jerk guy who everyone was trying to aim for. geeze jerk guy. it wasnt as fun as last time everyone met last minute at the gym. i felt bad coz they came all the way up north. after, it was raining like a motha ... haha ... and the lightning and thunder was scary ... sorry guys ... today felt like a waste ... sorry again ... my biggest concern right now: yan-yan might leave saturday ... dude, the our kickass gold day lunch (haha) will only be HALF as cool ... (boo) ... haha ...

wednesday: got a package from Bisa today! oh man i was so happy! she sent me our "books" that we used to write our thoughts/letters in and stuff. like two out of the five never got finished last year so we sent two of them off with lisa so she wouldnt be bored during the summer. well yeah ... i got it today and she had it all filled up! yes! haha ... seminar reading material! hehehe ... but man, it was so nice hearing from you bisa. we always miss each other by like minutes ... whenever you call, i would have like JUST left ... damn ...

WE ALL MiSS YOU SO MUCH BiSA!

felt bad coz ryan was having a bad day. the mood seemed to spread though ... jenna was sick and not in the mood ... (boo) no bumping partner for me ... hope you feel better jenna. did math in jap class ... visual basic was funny today. you get extra credit points when you initiate a conversation with the teacher (located in japan) ... and as soon as i see the teacher log on to the Distance Learning instant messenger thing, i told the whole visual basic class and we all swamped him with messages. we all got into one conversation coz he was so overwhelmed with im's. it was funny coz zach was being a smart ass ... haha ... dude that guy has balls! haha ... mel joined the conversation but mads was on his account so she was talking to us (classmates) in the group chat and was all like ... "DUDE MARJ, THiS STUFF iS GONNA BE EASY HUH? YOU COULD PROBABLY KiCK BACK iN THiS CLASS COZ OUR TEACHER iSNT EVEN HERE TO WATCH US ..." i was like, dude mel, mads, we're in a chat with the teacher ... and they were like "OH SHiT, SO THATS WHO WENDELL JOHNSON iS?!" HAHA ... everyone started cracking up. the teacher sounded like a prick so the nine of us decided to gang up on him and be annoying, smart asses ... haha ... and thats all we did during the hour and a half. lunch came and talked to ryan about the weekend. he's leaving saturday for the PI. sad man. "Coach" was the sub for math. it was alright coz she teaches better than davis but then again she's just so funny that i cant stand it ... *rolling my eyes* ... jess was funny with the calculator ... haha ... man that was funny! the test in chem was so easy. mesa gave us the answers in order last week ... inputed them into my calculator and flew through the whole thing. easy peezy. ryan ran practice coz the teachers had a meeting. got fitted for our uniforms and scrimaged JV which was really fun. i had to play middle coz jenna and jess was out. it was actually fun. oooooh! me and karlo have this super cool handshake(?) that you're jealous of! haha ... still had to do conditioning coz we havent in like a week?! we're playing tournament this weekend ... another reason why its sad that ryan's missing out. thats gonna be a lot of fun though ... of course i wont forget the shirts. oh yeah, remind me to bring the video cam! ooooh! im so excited! holy geeze theres a lotta cheerleaders! i coulda made the squad if volleyball wasnt on right now ... haha ... easy peezy ... missed it a lot when we were watching them outside ... miss my girls danielle, casey, ash ... the old squad ... man oh man, i cant wait to show them our stuff ... heel stretches and all! haha ... urban cheerleading squad? hmmm ... thats something to think about ... the after school bus sucked coz it was 3 to a seat again. but it was cool coz we got into a conversation about nintendo and the old duck hunt game and how everyone used to love that one track and field game where you use the running pad! haha ... funfun ... yep, val's right ... we should have a sleepover playing games all night! haha val is fun! ... told my mom and she was all up for the idea ... man, she's always so excited about having people over ... i think she likes to party more than joy and i do ... =) mmmm ... gotta go, dad's making adobo! haha ... just what ive been craving! today felt like a friday. brian leaves for the philippines this weekend too ... for a long ass time ... im gonna miss that boy ... (boo to all of that) ...

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thursday: an entry for my sillypeople ... i miss you all so much ...

just one of those days i guess where nothing big happened ... not too boring ... but not all that exciting either. i was dazing off in class today and suddenly found myself dreaming about my last day on guam ... i saw you guys at the airport wiff my fam and remy was making me cry forreal. as of now, i have less than 9 months left on guam ... thats not even long enough to have a baby and be here so you guys can be at the christening! haha ... and dont even think i forgot about your birfday! your present will get to you!! haha ... man i never see you anymore ... glad you're enjoying life ... school ... dammit, rem, you dont know how much my heart misses you! so much to tell you ... so much i want you to know ... maybe one day when this senior life decides to slow down. i love you. dont forget it.

jenna, im so glad youre around as often as you are. i think you save me from going insane ... like remember that shit week i was having? im telling you, i was so on the verge ... but you walking me to my bus and talking with me for that short 5 minutes was all the comfort i needed to erase any negative thoughts that have accumulted in a whole week ... just being able to talk to you ... to let things out ... you dont know how much that means ... thank you so much for everything thats you.

shaya ... like the site? you saw me working on the whole spongebob thing earlier last week ... but anyways ... i guess im officially welcoming you to the site! i started this a long time ago and it was intended to be a place between you me rem jenna menchie and lisa to write stuff and share things ... a lot of people know about the site now and often visit. but now that you have internet and are active in using it, the offer is still up if you want to join still and crap. you could always check in once in a while too ... dont tell me what i already know! *im-a-nerd* ... haha ... but yeah ... you're always like a link between me and rem ... i mean, you dont even come to school with us yet i feel you're still the one keeping things together ... i love you so much for that! of course ill always do the right things ... be a good friend ... anytime you need one shay ... and man, i cant wait till i get my liscense coz that means we could cruise in the beamer ... and you'll be driving it at night! haha ... coz im scared! haha ... damn night ... but yeah ... thanks for not making me feel weird ... things are changing and feelings will get hurt. im trying to save people from being hurt and i guess in the process im not doing whats making myself happy ... i guess im rambling now ... you prolly dont know what im talking about but you will later. thanks for the moral support in everything ... and for never wanting to see me cry. i heart you shayshay!

bisa! man getting those books back from you was the coolest thing to happen in a while! i swear i guess thats why i was so *inspired* to dedicate today's blog to you guys! it really makes me think ... yeah, of those of us left here, we're only a drive away where as you are a whole plane ride away ... we arent taking advantage of the last few months together ... but im sure things will start to get more exciting down the road ... hopefully soon coz before you know it, we're all gonna be going our own separate ways ... =( you dont know how much it meant to read the books you sent ... i mean it was just like your therapy all over again! man i miss how you always knew the right answers to our problems ... always willing to help out and give us advice that we may not have always wanted to hear ... being straight forward when you needed to ... just being you ... our bisa! our get together girl! so yeah ... i miss you! we all do! my mom wanted to hear how you were doing in cali ... and she said to keep your head up ... one of these days, we'll be back in cali and this time we wont miss each other! thats a promise! tell your family we said hi and tell your mom i miss her food! aaahhhhh! marj is hungry! haha ...

so on with the day ... everything was easy again. munched on gee's combos all through english ... that test was postponed ... dammit, i wanted to get it over with. spent seminar with jenna and ivey ... hey, we signed up for UCSF and applications are coming in. thats it. today was the day i decided what i want to do ... im going to be a teacher ... dont know what yet but i think finally deciding on a profession was a big step ... majoring in education, minoring in communications coz broadcast journalism is still something im looking forward to. living in the city of san francisco with two of the awesomest people at school is gonna be so fun! haha ... yeah ivey's scared that she wont get work done if we're together ... haha ... thats true ... none of us are planning on being sidetracked during college! aahhh ... but really though, we'll keep each other in check! =) already made plans to visit washington a lot so whoever's going out there for school, expect weekend guests ... often! ... haha ... im so excited! cwe was fine ... government was cool ... gonna debate next week. remind me to see ms. sablan about our group's topic on censorship.

didnt have a religion talk today ... yes! hahah!

keith got hurt during practice today. sad man sad ...

planning on posting up today coz tomorrow's gonna be a half day. weekend's gonna be busy. bye brio! bye ryan! have a safe trip ... see you soon ...

WHADDA HELL?!

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weekend: got things straightened out with my mom ... im back to my normal self again ... *thankgod* ... the twins won that basketball 3 on 3 shit this weekend ... wow, pretty impressive ... im thinking we're gonna have a championship team this year ... how awesome would it be to end senior year cheering for a team that's number 1?! dude i cant wait ... saturday was alright. we got to church late coz i had to go look for something at the BX ... father tom was in a rush so service lasted about 20 minutes ... alright! haha ... that night, i had to skip mel's invite on the karaoke and chado's invite to the breaking contest coz we were playing resident evil on kelvin's game cube and no one wanted to walk wiff me to his house ... yeah that was scary ... got home and watched Dragonfly (Kevin Costner) all by myself in the dark and got scared out of my pants ... had to turn it off coz it got too intense ... haha ... chilled all day sunday ... i was supposed to go check out the guy's game but i didnt want to leave the house ... got some cleaning done and played piano for like ... ever ... haha ... plus the news this weekend has been rather depressing ... there was like 3 car crashes in like the last three days ... and a whole buncha people died too ... sorta makes me glad i didnt get my liscense last friday ... glad i stayed off the roads ...

monday: REMY's 17th BiRFDAY! classes were boring today ... ms. livengood gots us doing busy work as usual. BEOWULF is starting to tick me off ... im tired of sharing my essays ... seminar was boring ... had to go talk to ms. jones about my Distance Learning class ... that sounds like its gonna be alright ... like we get this special instant message thingy just for dl students and yeah ... ima be chatting away with people right next to me forreal ... oh yeah and mel is gonna take it even after he moves to yokosuka so we'll still be in touch. coolcool. baskwill gots me working on his webpage ... thats pretty cool coz he has a better version of frontpage and yeah ... its cool ... ryan came up with me coz he didnt have his PPD shot to go work at the hospital ... that means there's TWO people taking AP Rocket Science now! haha ... there was nothing to do besides that ... oh man i swear government could be sooooo much cooler without some people ... geeze ... now we have to write even more essays ... (boo) ... pratice was cool today ... people are finally getting their physicals in so everyone's playing now ... we had our first VARSiTY practice today ... that was cool like finally practicing seriously and shit ... yeah i felt sorry for the guys coz it wasnt as fun for them. i cant wait till the team scrimages the guys ... the practice will be so good for us. our team is soooo loaded this year ... i think this is prolly th ebest volleyball team we've had ... so many people are so well rounded that its not even funny ... even the jv team is gonna do pretty good ... a lot of them came from middle school teams which is both good and bad but a good majority of them have playing experience and yeah ... i see good things to come for both of our teams ... man im excited. joy's hair was cool today ... dude i shoulda taken a picture ... haha ... maybe i still will ... so before i get on with my homework, i finally got my server to agree with me and i got my content page updated ... oh yeah and when i finally get an account with boomspeed i forget my password ... geeze marj ... so yeah ... i meant to take some pictures at school with the digital but joy needed my batteries for her cd player ... and i let her use them ... since im such a nice sister ... haha ... seems like everyone's getting sick ... i dont care if i am ... im not even gonna let that bring me down this week ... haha ... im on a mission to try to erase the shittiness of last week so nothing can get in my way ... not right now ...

tuesday: whoa ... today was crazy ... funny ... haha ... first period was chill. had a sub who wasnt mean so we did homework for other stuff and talked and listened to breaking music ... and felt like breaking but didnt coz we dont want the "sexy" routine to be played out ... haha ... chado's going out wiff maryanne! awww ... *my babies are growing up*! ... i fell asleep during second period coz i was tired as hell ... coz yeah ... haha ... i watched the video on DL classes already anyways ... when we finally got started on visual basic work all i ended up doing was chatting with mel ... haha ... lunch was cool. that dude thought i was a freshman ... i think he still does. must remember to add him to my gullible list ... havent heard from that in a while. math analysis was funny ... everyone was talking then all of a sudden the class quieted down at the same time and mr. davis was about to talk and ryan goes ... WHADDA HELL ... haha ... but it sounded like ... GO TO HELL ... dude that was soo funny ... thats gonna stick around for a while ... haha ... dammit i hate math ... we have a test next class ... i think we're moving fast ... crappers. fourth was better than previous days ... i even lost rack of time and didnt have enough to take my usual 15 minute break with the "bathroom" pass ... had lab as usual ... rico was all, WE NEED TO MEA-SHURE ... haha, FOB style ... haha ... the chauds kept cracking on him. haha ... weirdo ... mr. mesa pushed back the test till next week ... *phew* ... practice was good. we did a varsity 6 on 6 scrimage and me and steph just kept hitting for what seemed like the longest volley of ever ... haha ... JV had some pretty good action with genene's hitting! eee, wow! =) mads was all hyper after school ... had to calm her down coz she was getting a little too annoying ... haha ... tomorrow's a half day ... finally, a much needed break ... from everything! after practice i was gonna get started on my two essays (gov and english) but chado came over and messed up my patrick star stuffed animal and we spent forever getting him back together ... so he didnt look like a clam. haha ... then we ate and chad left then sheila came like right after ... she chilled over here till like 9:30 or something ... it felt so nice seeing her again ... i havent seen her since school and man it felt so refreshing talking to my shaya again ... joy was looking up scripts and monologues for drama. shaya helped her and picked out some pretty good stuff ... haha ... joy's gonna do the Cher's HATiANS monologue from clueless ... im gonna fix her up to be all girly ... haha ... im definitely gonna have pictures of that! i love joy! haha ... she is my alter ego! after shay left i was too tired to do homework ... so yeah ... made plans to not do our homework ... haha ... how gay huh? ... crashed and that was it for the day.

wednesday: i was on my 5th snooze button and the time was only 4:45 ... like five minutes later my mom bursts into the room trying to get me and joy awake coz she said it was 6 already ... joy gets up and rushes around for her stuff and i dont even bother ... im just sleeping. it was weird coz i coulda sworn the clock just said it was only 4:45 ... i thought i was having one of those sleeps where it feels like you've been sleeping a whole two minutes and all of a sudden it morning again ... but yeah while joy's rushing around, my mom comes back in the room and tells her to go back to sleep coz she read the clock wrong and it wasnt even 5 yet ... so im just like laughing ... and joy comes over to punch me ... haha ... so yeah. today was a half day. english went by sooo slow! i swear ima bs that entire paper ... seminar was weird! had a very deep conversation about the hypocracy of Catholicism compared to the teachings of the scriptures. i jumped into a pretty interesting convo with mr. dequina and alonzo about god and religion. makes me second guess a lot of things that i supposedly have faith in ... i mean ive thought about it before but ive never had the chance to share my views out loud let alone with other people who feel the same. early last year i started to question my religion and its teachings and my eyes were open to the blandness of mass and contradictions in its readings. im catholic but thats it ... theres a fine line between believing and obedience. and i think if i were part of a different religion, id be more obedient. ive always thought about converting ... to christianity ... i know they're pretty close but ive attended catholic mass and christian mass and there are differences. i would like to study the bible more ... i almost never even look at the bible during catholic mass. i want to attened a non-denomonational christian mass because i think id get more from it. it was weird talking about it at school because that was the second class in a row where religion and christianity came up. it was pretty interesting and its really making me think ... but anyways ... AP Rocket Science (haha) was cool. baskwill just had me working on his webpages ... i swear all i ever do in there is work on his laptop and everyone who passes by actually believes im the only student taking AP Rocket Science ... baskwill gave me the installation crap so i could have WindowsXP finally ... my frontpage is so much better now!!!! haha ... ima make use of this sunday teaching myself the new program ... had a chance to look at it earlier ... whoa, this is gonna make my life so much easier! haha ... im a dork. government was hard ... we took a test and my notecard barely helped! WHADDA HELL? ... haha ... crap man. we watched school house rock after that ... i remember how in japan on the AFN channel that would be some of the commercials ... those were the days ... i miss AFN actually ... i wore my super cool spongebob backpack! haha ... man i was so waiting for a day to wear it ... oh and me and ivey wore our super cool "SOPHOMORES" shirts ... we were sophomores for the day ... dude i forgot to bring the camera so i'll just get the shots next time we wear them ... oh and jenna's gonna wear one too coz we're gonna take another one from baskwill ... no practice coz of the open house bullshiz ... thats ok. i found out that we're playing with a united league this year ... how awesome is that. i went to work after lunch and saw this girl that looked like ashley hendersen ... man i miss that girl ... i remember how she'd always make us smell her kneepads after practice coz she didnt wash them for like 7 years! eee yuck! haha ... dude they did reek! haha ... this guy kept passing by the aisle i was working in and when he saw me come out with a box of makeup he was all surprise ... "dude i didnt know you worked here! i thought you were like 13!" ... haha ... i thought that was funny ... he comes to my school ... whats with everyone thinking im all young and shit? hmmmm ... maybe its coz of all the big, old-maturer-looking freshmen this year. good. id rather look younger than i am. our first game is next friday ... speaking of next friday ... it was supposed to be a no-school day but they decided to change it to a half day ... WHADDA HELL?! (haha) ... but yeah ... dont know where its gonna be yet but ill make sure to tell you so you could come support us! haha ... im so excited! cant wait for me and steph to get some kills in! woohoo! power to the outside hitters! haha ... oh yeah remind me to bring my video camera ... ok so i gotta go study for that test now ... oh yeah and get my forms signed for DL ... oh yeah and i missed a call from lisa AGAiN! grrr ... BiSA!!!!! CALL ME BACK!!!! miss you girl.

thursday: yay remy blogged! sitting here pulling an all-nighter ... damn my procrastination ... today was alriiiiiite ... spent Jap2 doing math homework coz we had that big test coming up ... jahara was absent so i had to try to get myself to understand the work. geeze ... listened to the young kids talking in the background ... they were telling me someone has a crush on my sister! haha ... chado was trying to get me to break ... damn the music was so tempting too! but yeah ... math and uhmmm yeah ... so visual basic was cool. we finally got started on Lotus and working in the electronic classroom. shit im scared coz i just came to terms with how many people all over the world are in my "class". its weird coz like we had to post our profiles today and i was reading some people's own and there were sooooo many people like everywhere! oh man ... im scared! haha ... chris was making fun of me coz i was freaking out. thats gonna be pretty interesting ... went to my cool ass lunch ... haha and saw the man-girl looking at our table ... grace got confused and the whole thing turned into something weird. i feel all bad too coz yeah ... she might be cool i guess. its just that she was new to our bus and like i fell asleep and we picked her up at kev's stop and like i woke up and the first thing i see is her big eyes and make-up face staring at me ... talk about a wake-up call ... i think thats waaaay too much makeup to be wearing so early in the morning ... too much for one person! but yeah ... sorry to hate ... it just cracks me up ... so went to math class and davis was absent! HAHA! NO TEST! and now ive got the whole weekened to study ... (yeahrite?) ... 4th period was blah. mr. mesa went over the answers to the test next week. easy peezy. wish i could walk around during fourth ... dammit. practice was actually boring today. coach was pissing me off again. first we did hitting drills and she pulled me off the side and was complimenting me all like ... you're the highest jumper on the team ... you're getting great air and pushing yourself waaaay up there. i was all like ... cool? ... but then she was all how about being middle blocker? and my heart sank. ahh ... four years later and ive finally found myself and where im comfortable and she wants to fucking move me ... what the hell? ive played every position and outside hitting is my favorite and probably my best. she was telling me to rethink it ... so im like if i choose to be outside hitter then she's gonna hold that against me and there goes playing time ... motherfucker ... then ms. k pulled me over to talk some shit out about joy and how she needs an inhaler ... k, first, she hasnt had active asthma in 5 fucking years ... that little "incident" was a result of dehydration ... runs in the family ... i know my sister. so now they wont let her play till she gets one ... we have to go through the whole process of getting her an appointment and bullshit ... what the fuck ... she's only concerned with joy coz she's considered jv too ... coach maher had no problem with her practicing ... they even went so far as to call my dad's work ... fuck. my parents hate getting called at work coz its like a burden or some shit so now my parents are threatening to not let her play at all ... i was all being myself and being protective of joy ... i sooo want her to play. if joy makes the far east team with me, the entire family is gonna take the week off and mom dad and cj are gonna come out to japan to support us and shit. how awesome would that be?! but thats not gonna happen if our coaches decide to continue being bitches. conditioning was not even hard today ... hey wait, how come mr. mesa is coaching? ... anyways ... plans are going down already ... oh man im so glad this weekend is coming up. brian is leaving soon =( so we're gonna hang out right?

friday: my momma brought home three class ring magazines. that was weird coz i never really talked to her about wanting to get one. we're looking around together now, comparing prices and shit ... its pretty cool coz yeah i want one! haha ... dammit i wish i was born in october coz of that pretty stone color ... but the amethyst is cool too i guess. anyways. i think ive decided that i want mine to have volleyball, 2003, "MARJO", a Guam seal, and a stone encrusted with a panther paw ... hmmm ... cant wait to see it ... didnt feel like a friday today. english was booty coz gee had an appointment and ryan was asleep at the lookout ... WHADDA HELL?! ... haha ... (still cant get over it) ... but yeah the all-nighter i pulled last night was all for nothing. more than half the class didnt have their papers so ms. livengood gives everyone the entire weekend to work on it. yep ... thats booty ... i got two hours of sleep dammit ... did my government paper in 30 minutes during seminar. BS perfected! haha ... sophomores had a class meeting ... oh now i know what it is ... those class meetings are for sexual harassment seminars in the cafeteria ... wonder how the senior class one is gonna go ... everyone kept talking about cheer tryouts monday. ms. withrow is doing it now. she came up to me asking if i was joining. i still dont know what to think about her being coach. hmmm ... 3 guys are trying out this year .. maybe more. not gay. just pervs. ... i forgot to check in with mr. villines for cwe ... haha ... helped out mr. baskwill with his life. i was too scared to ask about mr. davis ... how the hell do you bring something like that up anyways? government was ok. kept cracking up coz ms. FiSSZZHH (alonzo style) treated us like babies ... raise your hand to talk please. do we have to go over R E S P E C T again? dammit ... we got into groups and analyzed sections of the Constitution ... Rico was an expert on the whole amendments crap ... haha ... dude, i feel so bad for him. he gets in trouble like all the time. and he thought white girls would give him less drama(?) ... i think our group is gonna do pretty well in the debate next week ... yay ... looked out the window and it was ugly. i think i wanna stay home tonight. tomorrow is still the weekend. JV had practice today ... joy couldnt stay coz of the asthma that she doesnt have. we're going tomorrow morning though. im giving up a $90 demo job to go to 2 and a half hours of saturday morning practice ... geeze the things i do for the game ... haha ... the bus ride home was funny ... i asked ryan rosario if he had any food coz i was hungry for some chicken. he didnt but eric took out some cookies ... there was two left ... shevy and vanessa got the bag from eric and they gave me a whole one ... when everyone smelled the cookies they attacked shevy and vanessa so they had to share one cookie between like 6 people ... hey, i offered to share but everyone was all like, oh no its ok ... YOURE THE SENiOR ... haha ... looked out the window in search for my Integra hottie and saw a little boy looking out the window of his super-shiny-black pathfinder ... looked like my future son Kaz ... awwww ... such a cutie pie! haha ... man its raining like a motha ... haha ... i really dont want to go anywhere ... maybe ill just stay home and call my lisa bo bisa ...



saturday: im actually glad we went out last night. i sorta wasnt in the mood ... the rain made outside look real ugly and dark, shaya had to go to a rosary, chado couldnt go coz they had plans to follow morris after his date wiff trish(?), and ryan was sleeping ... however, we convinced each other or something and made it to GPO at 8. jenna didnt wanna see blue crush coz it was an insult to real surfers ... haha ... er, as emily put it at least ... =) so we skipped the movies (good) and played our favorite game again at Central Lanes this time. dude that place was packed up the a-hole! the pros were all out ... we had to wait on a 45 minute waiting list just to get a lane. decided to hang around whimseys for a while and they played foozball(?) and watched this supercool guy play a new dance dance game with his feet AND hands! haha ... man i was jealous ... then a karaoke machine diverted our attention. we sang along with this academy chik who needed some help ... with the songs ... and waited for a turn ... she took forever and kept singing that damn britney spears song ... so we got called up coz our lane was ready. typed in the usual obscene names ... dammit they gave us another shit lane. the monitors went off like 5 times ... our first game was going so good too! haha ... everyone's gotten so much better! dude jenna, where the hell did all of that come from?! i thought your hand was hurt dammit! maurice had this super cool hand twisting thing where the ball was spinning all cool and crap ... i dunno, you had to be there ... its cool though ... speaking of maurice ... he jinxed me! all i needed was two more pins to break 100 and he started to talk ... haha ... dammit maurice! ... so like after the fifth time our monitor broke sheila made me talk to the guy at the counter coz she said he was cute ... walked over there and not only did he transfer us to a new lane but he also gave us a free game! haha ... yeah im good ... by the way, he wasnt even cute ... WHADDA HELL?! ... haha ... ok yeah ... things were fun just chillin ... just when things were getting really fun, we all had to go ... (boo to curfews) ... click for our scores ... came home and stayed up til 4 doing chem homework ... i know, what loser? haha .. woke up at 8 today coz pratice was at 11:30. it was sorta boring coz all we did was go over positioning ... we were supposed to all go out to wendy's after but my mom surprised us and picked us up on her way home from navy. got home around 3 and crashed till 9 ... after that i was still sleepy so i ate and went back to sleep. while i was asleep, the fam went out to church then a movie. damn they go to the movies a lot ... next weekend we're all supposed to go out camping at tarague. mencho was telling me about how she wants to get us playing volleyball there ... yeah but dude, the sun! hah a... maybe after senior pics! haha ... but yeah ... even just to chill i think tarague would sound nice.

this week went by pretty good. definitely erased the shitiness of the last one ... i was even sick all week! haha ... who cares ... i still had a good time. see, i told you so.

web-related: had some time to mess around with my new frontpage program. man its so confusing and easy at the same time(?) i got a layout done in an hour ... my fastest one yet ... but i prolly wont release it till next weekend. theres still a few things i want to work out. havent been online much this week. my daily entries are saved offline in a regular notepad document. life is easier that way. oh yeah. is my tag board down or what? see you in a week ... hopefully i'll be back with a new look for this site!

HAPPY 17th BiRFDAY REMY!

SHiT WEEK & THE WORD "SEXY"

weekend: we went out to the movies saturday night ... no biggie ... good movie/s ... saw the preview for 8 Mile and hell yeah that shit looks like its gonna be good ... made the plans wiff chado and brio already ... oh yeah and i saw a SiGNS preview again and screamed like a wimp ... yep i know ... even after seeing that movie three times. chilled all day sunday ... practiced at Tiyan ... blah blah blah ... dammit i think its sexy when a guy breaks ... sings ... *sighs* ... aaaahhhh ... cant ... stop ... smiling ... like ... crazy ...

monday: school was blah as usual ... except for our cool ass lunch haha ... me and the other two seniors ... haha ... geeze ... everyone got sick today. i swear two people were puking on the bus the entire way back to andersen ... one kid had to get off at mcdonald's at NCTMS coz he was so bad ... so yeah. DONT DRiNK THE WATER and STOP EATiNG THAT LUNCH AT SCHOOL ... i finally got my copy of eminem's new one ... that took forever ... practice was cool ... oh but she made us run suicides like right away ... haha ... it was a race against me and joy ... that was cool ... i won duh ... haha ... but i wasnt ready on the next round and i ended up taking my sweet time ... she has so much potential for Varsity ... hell yeah im proud of her! haha ... taught her everything she knows dammit ... scrimages went alright ... that was the first time i got to play wiff christine chop. pretty cool ... whenever we had a killer set up ready, our setter fucked up ... haha ... dude, those guys knew my name already ... i was all weirded out when he called me marj ... haha ... k im over it ...

tuesday: school? ... yeah blah ... ms. livingood gots us doing some work forreal ... she's just a sub too ... hmmm ... sensei's last day is tomorrow ... sadness ... being baskwill's aid today was boring. he had no work for me to do yet so i had to come up with a quiz for his geometry classes ... i cant wait till government gets more interesting ... debates are cool ... oh except that we have friggin smart asses in our class. they always piss me off and thats why i stay quiet ... geeze they have like a comment for everything that its annoying ... practice was the best part of the day again. coach says she pretty much has varsity and junior varsity picked out already. man ... makes me sorta nervous all over again ... she pissed me off so much though trying to spike that shit at my face ... we did the same drill freshman year with her and last time she did that i hit it back at her. oh and she was re-teaching me my approach ... dude, she was teaching me the exact opposite of what ive been learning the last two years she wasnt coach ... backtracking is a bitch ... man i hate her ... grrr ... sorry, just gotta let that out ... i feel like scrimaging some more ... bri-o and chado picked us up from practice so we could go shopping for a b-day present for jenna ... hehehe ... tomorrow is her birfday! =) chado got a backpack just so he could put that GARY patch that i bought from the states ... oooh ... i feel some pictures coming up! anyways ... we couldnt find anything for jenna coz we only had like limited time to shop ... so i picked up a balloon and we're gonna go look around some more ... a surprise party is in the works for lunch on thursday ... hehehe ... we stopped by compadres to check out some skate shops and joy went to check out the ProjX ... that new skate park ... it was pretty cool. you had to pay to skate for a certain amount of time though ... dude the guy totally let my sister skate for free ... man he was a cutie ... he let joy use his board and helmet (gross yeah?) ... but yeah it was cool ... hookups ... =) joy loves this day. so im supposed to be doing some math homework ... just had to get my blog in for the day!

MARJO & CHADO-SAN ARE OFFiCiALLY THE SEXiEST MOTHA's iN THE WORLD!

wednesday: JENNA's 17th BiRTHDAY! she wore a skirt! hehehe ... dude jenna, you should wear them more often! so sexy =) ... plans are down for tomorrow night. gold days suck. said bye to sensei coz that i wouldnt be in class friday to say goodbye for good ... we had doughnuts ... thats the best class of my day ... it just feels odd being in there now without so many of us from last year ... i mean like the better part of our class is together in Jap2 this year ... xcept for bisa and robin ... now sensei ... *sighs* ... going to that class is cool ... it just makes me sad everyday thinking back to such great times we've had at that room ... at that same table ... took basic programming for the first time. that stuff is pretty complex ... i think im handling it just fine considering im two days behind everyone. that calvo boy is such a genius! hehehe ... i wanna marry a genius! haha ... im so not getting math analysis. i sorta regret taking stats coz it kinda sidetracked me from "real" math ... forreals though ... how the hell do you factor again?! someone help me coz alfredo sure isnt! ... had chem to make the bad days even longer. i swear that class is too easy for me ... rico and the skater boys are in there with me at least to keep me laughing my pants off ... haha ... frog guts ... practice was alright ... i hate how she ends practice with suicides ... those are killer on my butt muscles! and the pain sticks around for the rest of the day ... crappa mappa ... brian and chado picked us up again. and so did my mom like 5 minutes later ... haha ... everytime i call my mom to pick us up from practice our connection diconnects and we miss each other by minutes ... geeze ... we find out the teams this friday ... man im so scared. after, everyone just came over and we chilled out in the front ... breaking in the street ... man this routine is gonna be sexy ... haha ... guys are sexy when they break ... i like the word "sexy" right now ... haha ... damn chado got it stuck in my vocab ... i didnt feel like talking much today. people thought there was something wrong ... dude, i just felt quiet ... no big deal ... at the end i started to get irritaed though coz people were getting on my case about someone ... fuckfuckSHiTfuck ...

my mom's telling CJ to run for president ... coz she'll make lotsa lumpia ... haha ... wish i had lumpia to pass around during my campaign(s) ... haha ... oh yeah bisa called ... man i really want to talk to her ... actually i want to talk to all the sillies ... im think of starting another group blog - strictly between us ... just because this one's become too public ... im afraid im gonna sell out ... im more afraid that i actually did ... its been a while since we had the bonding just between the girls. i miss that. no one's at school when you want them to be. theres no classes to share ... we need to get some senior meetings together soon or else ima go crazy and give into hanging out wiff the strangers just to sufice my social needs ... haha ... i want to change all my classes around again. i hate gold days.

thursday: havent felt like myself in the last two days. crap's been bugging me and it sucks coz i have no one to talk to. i really miss you guys being around more often. it feels like i really need you guys right now ... really ... i mean you know, just coz you guys are there to hear out my petty problems ... youre there so i could let out my anger and blah ... freak i really need someone to talk to. jenna i swear i was seriously almost gonna quit volleyball today. i really need you there with me coz its driving me crazy not having anyone on the team to talk to ... to relate to ... not having someone to bitch with when the goddamn coach keeps trying to hit my fucking face ... its seemed like every little thing has irritated me today. and no it isnt pms-ing coz that's already happened ... i just need you guys to talk to ... *sigh* ... i havent said much in the last two days coz everything that i want to say involves the use of a cuss word after every single noun. and *gasp* the world is gonna end if excessive profanity is heard coming out of my mouth right? *sarcasm ... rolling my eyes* ... but anyways ... classes were alright i guess. the sub pissed me off coz she said we had to present our essays ... the ones about our five-year plans ... she didnt tell us that before she assigned it so yeah ... you'd think it'd be something personal yeah? everyone made a big deal about having to read theirs and shit. geeze, i mean yeah she coulda told us that we were gonna share our work but i dont think it shoulda been a big of a deal as everyone made it out to be. she made big will leave the room just coz he wanted to present first ... what the hell? she said he was still "...flapping his jobs" ... haha ... i didnt care whether or not we should share our papers though ... i dont care for much these days. then i saw jennifer and she had a spongebob tatoo and i freaked out. i told her i was jealous so she gave me one ... haha ... i still havent decided where i want to put it, if i even want to use it, or if i should just save it ... that was probably the best part of my day ... seminar was pretty productive. i didnt talk to anyone really ... got my basic programming work for the week done and got an early start on my math analysis. baskwill helped me out during cwe ... damn, i cant believe how behind i am in everything ... the freshmen had a class meeting today. i was so curious about what they were doing. i missed those. but joy told me that all they did was listen to mr. chop explain the planners and shit. lunch was cool ... we tried to pull off this surprise party belated birthday lunch for jenna but it was just me and joy who ended up bringing pancit and ryan bringing drinks. it was cool though ... i mean i guess it was my fault again for not calling and telling people and shit ... but yeah i was really tired after pratice wednesday to tell people about lunch the next day and when i finally came around to having time after practice, after all the homework, after resting for like 5 whole minutes, it was like 11 at night and i didnt feel like burdening anyone all late and shit ... it always ends up feeling like shit is my fault ... fuck i hate this feeling ... i had to leave the lunchroom for a while to cool off ... fuck again ... its getting back to me. and dammit i was trying not to be all dramatic and shit ... for jenna's sake. but it was cool ... fed everyone with the pancit ... had a nice talk with uncle dan ... man that boy is gonna be a daddy. who's next? ... nevermind. government could be a lot cooler if there werent so many smart asses in there. i mean i swear to god i dont know what makes these people feel like they NEED to have a smartass comment after every single thing someone says ... ugh and i hate it especially when they try to be all witty and fuck. ms. delaire wants the girls to talk more in class since we are the minority ... no complaints there. id like to talk more in there ... share my opinions ... but i would if someone/people would stop trying to sound all impressive and let everyone else have a chance to answer the questions. geeze. i tried to pay attention in that class today but in the process of shutting out the smartasses, everything else got shut out too and i just stopped caring. again. plus i couldnt consentrate much coz it was cold and i spent like half the class period trying to remember where i left my jacket. practice is so much better when you dont end it with suicides. i was hoping to let out my anger during practice ... on the volleyballs of course ... that kinda helped ...

... and that damn song is getting to me.

#14 ... sometimes i feel im crazy.
im crazy, oh so crazy.
why am i here, am i just wasting my time?
but then i see my baby.
suddenly im not crazy.
it all makes sense when i look into her eyes.

sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders.
everyone's leaning on me.
coz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over.
but then she comes back to me ...

i act like shit dont phase me.
inside it drives me crazy.
my insecurities could eat me alive.

and i cant help but listen to it on repeat ... like the tard that i am.

on a better note: i get to sleep in tomorrow ... yay? i dont want to go back to school though ... tomorow's a gold day ... (boo) ... man oh man ... its just one of those days i guess ... i so want this to end. ive never hated school as much as i have these last 7 days. ive never meant it that much either.

friday: another shit day to end an already shit week. ok. im not mad at anyone. im sorry if i came out that way ... im really sorry ... i just havent been myself lately ... but dont apologize for something you didnt do ... coz that irritates me ... today was supposed to be the day i was looking forward to end this streak of bad days ... so my mom made me go to bed early last night to get a good rest for my road test. i got all my shit ready and yeah ... i was bugging her two weeks ago about the liscence plate in the front ... when the instructor calls me out, he says we cant even go on the road coz of that shit. dammit ... so i went to go re-schedule and the earliest date was september 4 .. FUCKiNSHiT ... and alla sudden, my mom comes running back in with the liscence plate coz it was in the trunk. the guy said that we couldnt go anymore coz of the five minute grace period ... so im pissed off coz it sure as hell wasnt MY fault ... yet on the way to school she kept yelling at me and shit ... i didnt even say anything ... i just cried ... i kept crying at school ... geeze ... it was so hard getting through the day. im not upset that i didnt get to take my test ... its just that i was telling my mom about the plates for a while now and its something that could have totally been avoided ... yanno? ... so now its another three week wait ... i coulda ended up happy today and went out celebrating with the crew ... instead im more depressed now than ever ... and shit ... i hate everything ... i switched to DL Visual Programming ... self-motivation shit ... more shit to deal with. (LATER FRiDAY AFTERNOON) just got back from work. havent gone there in a week and a half. i think i needed that to distract my mind from everything else. it helped. i didnt want to go home right away ... so i just walked around and hung put in the greeting cards aisle ... i swear i could stay inthat part of a store for hours on end! the people at hallmark are geniuses! haha ... i read a hella lotta cards ... no subject in particular ... just a whole bunch ... and totally felt like a tard for being so "touched" by some of them ... haha ... hey, dont even lie though ... you know those hallmark commercials are deep forreal ... came home and the family went out to watch a movie ... i still havent asked them what they watched. i stayed home coz yeah ... things with my mom arent going so well right now ... but i bet we'll be back to normal by tomorrow coz of that shit she signed us up to model for. i talked to a couple people on the phone who i havent talked to in a while. i needed that. talked all the shit out that had been building up inside my head this past week and now i feel so much better. really ... man, that talk with jenna on the way to my bus really was relieving ... even though it was only five minutes ... to know im not the only who feels that this year has just been nothing but shitty so far gives me some sort of relief ... hey, im not alone ... and you know what, you guys shouldnt have to feel that way either ... *thanks so much jenna* ... hmmm ... so yeah alex "jae" buenviaje called me up from japan ... it was actually really nice hearing from him ... to know that people from that far back still remembers you and still takes the time out to call is really nice. the conversation with him actually made me feel better ... he sounds more matured ... he sounds more like he's being real now ... just himself ... and thats a good thing for everyone. chad and brian came by to pick me up to go breaking but i skipped the offer coz i needed to be alone for a while ... to get my head together ... to think and talk things out ... we're supposed to go do stuff tomorrow or something ... we'll see what happens ... i found out i made varsity ... that was good to hear ... quite relieving actually ... i bet joy's gonna play swing ... as for how im feeling right now, im getting better ...

saturday: woke up early coz me and joy had our photo shoot session thingy at 9:30 ... yeah it was hard trying to keep a straight face ... haha ... drove down to GPO with the kids. we ate and had some ZAGU's and passed by the snow festival that just opened. we were supposed to check it out with the crew last night but yeah ... shit happened. haha ... we still dont know what it is ... something like a $25 entrace fee plus a coat rental coz its so cold in there ... i didnt think we'd go iin coz we're all cheap ... we prolly woulda just ditched to go bowling or seen that new chick surfing movie or Triple X(?) after we ate we went upstairs coz the candidates set up their little table to campaign. we met Camacho & Moylan for gov and Lt. Gov, Ray Tenorio for Senator (NO EMPTY PROMiSES, JUST HARD WORK), Toni Sanford for senator, Jesse Lujan for senator, Madaline Bordallo for Congress, and Judi Won Pat for Congress. Judi was the nicest lady out there ... the guy even took a picture of us with her ... haha ... got balloons and Unpingco & Calvo gave us free pencils for school! yay! dammit i wanted a super cool shirt from that Sablan dude coz they had the super man signs on the back of them in our school colors ... that woulda been sweet ... that was fun ... bought some new shoes ... ah, the power of getting new shoes! CJ started to get cranky so i drove them home ... later tonight we'll be at kelvin's party ... chado and brio might pick me up from there though coz the breaking competition at the ProjX might be tonight ... if not then ill be at mel's house singing on his new karaoke till 3 in the morning! haha ... and yeah i did straighten things out with my mom ... that was so funny ... yep, im feeling better ... a lot better. im am so ready for this next week.

oh yeah ... i forgot to get the web stuff out of the way ... anna, kaycee, and connie all have beautiful new layouts ... so see them now!

did anyone notice the updates at the photo album? i mean i updated them like 2 weeks ago and didnt tell anyone ... but yeah ... two or three more pages added ... i think?

joy's site isnt being updated at all ... is it just us or does it take forever for the chromeless window to pop up?! ... i wanna change this layout to something more simple ... something really simple ... like joy's page ... easy peezy ... im looking at somewhere around the end of the month because we got a three day weekend coming up ... hmmm ...

have a great weekend kiddies ...

HAPPY 17th BiRFDAY JENNA!!

i THiNK iTS GONNA BE A LOOOOONG YEAR.

first day of school: man the bus (haha) was packed. last year we had a seat to ourselves. the freshmen this year arent as bad as the ones last. the only problem with that class is that its sooooo goddam big ... theyre everywhere ... and you can tell who they are coz they're lost and asking directions according to room number ... damn, i been at that school for the last three years and i have no idea what each teacher's room number is ... i found that funny ... started the day out shitty ... had JAP 2 and sensei broke the news to us (in tears) that she was leaving to teach somewhere closer to her daughter ... i dont blame her for leaving ... the sticks up the admins' asses got pushed up way higher this summer ... she told us she loved us and that we should be good for the new teacher ... then i started to cry ... and it was only 10 minutes into the new school year. the rest of the day was alright ... classes are too easy for gold days ... periods 1-4 are all underclassmen classes ... yeah i feel dumb. first lunch blows ... three seniors ... woopee ... i was scared for joy all day. last time we went to the same school, i was in 5th grade watching out for my little 2nd grade sister ... i was so paranoid for her and kept looking for her all day ... haha ..

second day of school ... blue days are way better. i think all of my classes are SENiOR core classes ... periods 5-8 arent that challenging either ... but at least i can talk to people i guess. being baskwill's aid is cool ... he tried making me write up his lesson plan ... i whined and he gave in and let me just look at pictures on his webpage the whole time ... haha ... thats gonna be easy. seminar was cool with all those games ... the last time i got to play games in school was way back in 8th grade ... then dequina started to show us some magic tricks and Rico kept cracking me up with his dumb ass accent. he got in trouble already about his sagging and next time he's caught he has to wear this pink belt ... with his shirt tucked in ... haha ...

school is blah. i already got pissed off the first day when davis gave us homework and a textbook that we have to bring everyday ... and people started talking about something ... fuck it ... nevermind. i thought itd be way better than this but i dont even have classs with rem mench or jenna ... geeze what the hell is that? and its gonna suck even more next semester when everyone switches to every other day schedules ... i really miss you guys. i cant believe i let the entire summer go bye without writing one of my "letters" ... i dont know what the hell is wrong with me ...

everyday someone says ... i CANT WAiT TiLL TERRA NOVA WEEK ... i think its turned into such a cliche ... haha ... but you know what? i cant wait till terra nova week ... haha ...

the other cheerleaders seem to be freaking out about ms. goff not coaching this year. i found out this summer while i was up at the school ... she said she didnt feel appreciated ... that she wasnt getting paid enough ... and that there wasnt enough time ... blah blah blah. i dont think of it as being a big of deal than the others do. i mean yeah i admit that she DiD know what she was doing ... and she DiD know to keep us in check ... and yeah casey's right, she DOES draw good ... hmmm ... this stuff is making me think twice about my decision again ... i dont want to fly with a coach who doesnt know how to teach it properly .. itll just be totally different without THE ultimate-former-cheerleader-of-the-world telling us what to do ... (or what not to do) ... its gonna be a pretty interesting season ... and thats that.

so aside from school ...

reinhold stopped by today to say bye. im gonna miss that guy. so many people have treated him like shit in the past. he's one of the collest guys out there. he said that when he grows up (haha) he's gonna write songs about all the girls who's dissed him ... and he said they WONT be about me! haha ... supercool ... hopefully we can talk him into cross country so he could come back to guam for far east. oh yeah he was telling me about how he was in the emergency room all last night coz he had a reaction to wine that caused him to have trouble breathing ... he was on IV's and shit ... that was scary/weird ... so ... rein-like. ill never forget how he was always him self ... like at wendy's when he'd be all loud and shit ... or when he'd take a dare no matter how sick it was ... he ate a pice of watermelon my brother dropped on the ground in my car port ... what a tard ... definitely gonna be missed.

brian picked me up after school and we got chad. nothing to do on a friday night so i got another breaking lesson ... we were in a real practice room this time so it was cool ... chad's teaching me this cool stuff that looks friggin cool ... haha ... i dont know what to say about it ... one day we're gonna break out our sexy ass routine ... haha ... but yeah, uhm give me some time ... im just now catching on to this stuffs ... watch out world ...

volleyball was cancelled for friday ... i was looking forward to that all day dammit ... so far we've had only ONE goddam practice ... even thats starting to make me sick ... it doesnt seem like any of our coaches has the time to commit ... pisses the shit out of me ...

gonna be busy tomorrow ... me and my momma's gonna go out ... homework is out of the way ... seriously ... is it possible to be procrastinating already? im glad its the weekend. hopefully ill be back to my perky, optomistic self by the next entry ... till then, school sucks. not you guys ... just school.

BUH-BYE SUMMER. iTS BEEN A BLAST.

school starts tomorrow.

i was hoping to get a new layout up just for that but im too lazy to upload everything. i have a lot to get ready for ... good gracious theres so much to think about. i was at the school yesterday so i got my schedule set.

looking back, i feel that this was a pretty good summer. even though i didnt get some stuff done, i did get other (unexpected) things done ... and it feels all worthwhile ... my only regret is that i didnt get to spend time seeing certain people. Jarreau leaves this friday and we havent talked in a while ... dammit, i was hoping he'd be the one to break up with me ... just because i feel i deserve i more ... everyone's right. i was happier when we were just friends ... ah well ... three months and nine days ... thanks for so much, love ...

yep ... here it comes ... the dreaded monday mornings and last minute cramming ... im so glad i dont have to deal with teachers who i know will make me cry ... geeze ...

we're getting bus passes today ... ive had the same picture since we had to take the busses while school was at building 21000 ... funnyfunny. my road test is on the 16th ... after that its driving to school on game days ...

well, its been a blast sharing my/our summer with you all. but this doesnt mean i wont be back blogging. its just that layouts wont come up as often as they did ... (this one is gonna stick around for a while) ... but ill probably be back at least once or twice a week to blog. the photo album will be updated way more often that this site since the digital will be with me at all times. good luck at school ...

thanks everyone for making my summer that less boring ... i <3 you all ... see you around.

4 MiLES DOWN. 4 TO GO.

cant stay on long. we're watching american idol and side show bob is singing ... geeze, they wont have a final winner till the end of september ... damn ... they're carrying this show on for a while ...

me and ivey went to the school today to help baskwill out ... we made his bulletin board super cool ... and went through a whole buncha junk that was there ever since freshmen year ... damn we found all this sophomore class junk from our year as officers ... i even found donny & ashley's video from the scary movie contest we had that year ... man i wanna have another one this year! me and ivey got some consolation prizes for all the help ... haha ... its gonna be a surprise right ivey?! *grinning* ...

talked tro ms. k today ... volleyball starts thursday for sure so bring your stuffs or else you wont have 10 practices by the first game ... yep, we're kinda cramming in time ... but its cool ... me and joy got 4 miles in today ... tomorrow we're going another 4 ... damn im tired.

ok so i need to find some new ring tones and ivey told me about the free sheet music site.

oh yeah ... everyone should make their home page CNN.com because its so informative ... so what if i like the news ... people like that are way better off ... did you hear about the conjoined babies? they're so cute!

GODDAMN TRENDS

third day in a row that ive worn my glasses ... not thats its bad or anything ... i guess im just too lazy to get my contacts renewed.

school starts this thursday. im sorta disappointed in myself for not accomplishing some stuffs that i set out to do at the beginning of the summer ...

i wanted to contact a whole buncha people (via snail mail) that i havent kept in touch with for a while. i mean im really bad at sending mail or replying even when its email. what sucks even more is that when youre friends leave you make a big deal about keeping in touch ... so far i havent really kept my part of the agreement(s) ... i really miss a lot of people and although life is going good back here in guam, theres just something missing ...

ive been reading a lot lately ... haha ... an attempt to expand my vocabulary i guess. i want to improve my SAT grade which isnt looking too good right now as far as applying to the colleges that i want to attend. i borrowed three SAT books and 2 CD-Roms and i havent touched those since i got them two weeks ago ... geeze ... procrastination is gonna kill me this year. and with volleyball coming up ... *sighs* ... prioritizing is gonna be a bitch. i can tell already.

man oh man. i have a lot on my mind. bear with me.

just got back from another long day at work. its days like these that make me feel like im missing out on so much ... like the whole world is having fun ... being carefree and im stuck at work. but i guess thats just how it is.

i almost got stopped by the cops today ... haha ... speeding down marine drive can be quite tempting when early morning rush hour is over and no one else is on the road. everytime i was stuck at a light, i had a lot of time to think and i realized that i had turned into another faceless driver on the road ... you know, the kind full of road rage, impatience and blah. i thought it was funny ... i dont even have my liscence yet ... haha ... it feels cooler that way ...

so on to some other things ...

i logged on to msn yesterday ... first time in months ... there was this psycho dude who started talking to me telling me he's been trying to get in touch for the longest time. he knows who i am and we havent even met ... uh-oh ... i better not say anything more. he goes to this website.

i just realized that my links section is very much in need of updating ... i visited some sites that i havent been to in a while ... wowzers ... it seems like everyone's up to new things ... and they're all at geocities which i think is such a tragedy especially since that server decided to use ads and shit ... have i ever told you how much i hate ads? and who doesnt use blogger these days? ... sorry im kinda cranky ... damn the trends ... id switch my servers if it wasnt for my damn laziness and extreme fear of change ...

blah blah blah ...

im in need of a good song ... to calm me down ...

there you go ... im still not tired of it ... i <3 WHEATUS's GiVE A LiTTLE RESPECT ...

oh yeah ... BRi-O and CHADO came over last night ... its been a while since they chilled at the house ... i missed that. i watched their breaking video and felt like dancing ... chad's teaching me how to break now! haha ... he has this plan to break on the first day of school and im supposed to be practicing an up-rock(?) and this new one chad made up on his own ... its cool coz i learned how to call someone out ... ooooo ... be scared ... haha ... sike. but yeah i cant help but end up doing a scorpion whenever i try that move ... oh well ... cheerleading habit i guess?

dad rented Kung Pow yesterday ... that was so stupid ... funny ... funny ... stupid ... haha ... *MU-SHU-FA-SA* ... gotta see it. joy just came back from renting A Walk To Remember ... i know, i know, i saw it already but i asked her to get it so i could memorize that handshake that they do! haha ... im a dork ... so im gonna go and get started on memorizing ...

SiGNS!

once again connie manages to amaze me ... AAAAHHH! she brought back the Olsen twins! ... haha ... yeah they were like on a mission to solve a mystery in austrailia on their sixteenth birthday ... haha ... who sees their movies anyways? man, i wish i was them ... racking up all that money ... getting all those clothes ... making cheesy films ... speaking of layouts ... anna has yet another sweet one of course ... visit that sweetie pie ... oh and i gotta plug chel coz she's so cool! *thanks chel*

we were supposed to go to Club Chameleon last night but everyone changed their mind last minute coz no one felt like dancing with kids ... and something about a magic show? ... so we saw a late showing of SiGNS. we had to sit in the VERY front row coz the place was packed up the a-hole ... ive never sat there before ... it was funny though coz we all had to like sit with our heads all back and when we got up everyone was dizzy ... and next time, we're gonna get there early so my uncle could hook us up with free tickets and reserved seating. shit that was a good one! man, i never seen sheila or ryan get so scared. after coming home from that movie, i had to ask joy and cj to sleep with me coz i was still scared ... haha the three of us were all squished ... they kept asking if they could leave yet but i told them to wait till i fell asleep ... haha ... i woke up all alone in my bed ... but anyways ... everyone should see it ... man, i almost cried ... geeze what a wimp!

later that day ... i just came back from the movies again ... man i dont even remember the last time i saw a movie with my family ... everytime i go its with the crew ... it was a nice change ... they all wanted to see SiGNS coz i was telling them about how good it was ... i thought id just walk around and do some school shopping but i changed my mind and decided to watch it again ... so yeah i saw it for the second time ... luckily i learned from my previous SiGNS experience to get in early for the seats ... we got good seats this time but i do have to admit it wasnt as scary ... i mean when we sat in front row, the aliens were literally popping out in front of us ... i did scream as loud as i did the first time i saw it ... yep ... im such a wimp ... AND i found myself to be the only one screaming that loud ... again ...haha ... it was cool ... CJ is gonna sleep in my room again tonight ... not for me this time ... coz he's scared to sleep in his own room ... haha ... now they feel dumb for teasing me ...

i went to Macy's for a while coz i wanted some pants ... i got a SPONGEBOB backpack instead ... haha ... yeah i know, im a sucker again. i cant stand not having it ... they sold that bag at TWiNKLES for $20 - something ... but the whole Macy's was on sale so i only paid $9 bucks ... i felt so happy that i treated my family to the movie and food ... and two "happy" movies that we ended up renting after so CJ could feel better ... now im broke ... dont ask me to go anywhere ...

ooo! ooo! i wanna see sweet home alabama because im a sucker for those kissie-face ones ... dammit ... and i dont care if no one else wants to see it coz ill just watch with ivey! man i want her hair cut! im gonna get it that short after senior pics ... hmmm ... it doesnt start till september 27th though ... plans ... plans ... plans ...

school starts thursday ... wow ... im excited to see everyone again ... hopefully we'll finally have a realy practice too ... we've been conditioning on our own so we better get some court time ...

NUFFiN BETTER TO DO

i forgot what i was supposed to do today ... me and cj took some pics wiff the digital coz we're bored ... i think joy went to orientation(?) hey, i hope she took the consent forms back ...





waaa ... im going crazy ... i wanna hear my song again! dammit ... oh oh oh! me and joy can play it as a duet now ... piano & guitar ...

*iM SO iN LOVE WiTH YOU. iLL BE FOREVER BLUE ... BUT YOU GiVE ME NO REASON ... YOU KNOW YOU'RE MAKiNG ME WORK SO HARD ... *

MORE BULLSHiT.

dammit im sore all over.

we went to school today coz they said practices officially begin. whoa there was a lot of people trying out. kinda intimidating, you know? especially when there's so many new people from the states. but yeah ms. k came in and was like ... "we cant officially use the court until everyone has their forms ... blah blah blah ... another waste of time. we had classroom instruction instead and went over all these new rules and regulations (which was all her idea, of course) about absences and tardies ... get this: after three absences from practice (whether they're excused or not) you get kicked from the team. what the hell ... i thought the whole thing was gay and i got even more mad when they said the head coach wasnt gonna be on island for a while and court practice wouldnt begin until after school starts.

she also said we have to condition on our own ... and log down a mile everyday ... i know a mile isnt that much but yeah right ... like im gonna have the self-discpline for that? haha ... that was more bullshit.

so after that complete waste of time, we all got together to plan what we were gonna do for the rest of the day coz we were all ready to play ... my mom came by with CJ to take us to navy to work with her but we wanted to go out to eat with everyone so CJ, joy and i rode with ryan to taco bell and met everyone there. Mel had to take mads and the girls to DMV first coz she passed ... haha ... man, can you believe it? mads on the road? hehehe ... but yeah they were all late ... when we all got done eating, everyone started to mess with mel and mad's kid who they brought... haha ... he was stinky! i felt bad for everyone else who had to eat around us ... the conversation going on was quite uhm ... yeah ... un-appetizing(?)

after we ate, we met up at the gym on base to play ... mencho was already there - (WiTHOUT ron!) ... we got the net set up and all th late people showed up and we played ... it was pretty cool coz joy had three killer aces that surprised even herself. true varsity potential! hehehe ... hell yeah i would love it if she made varsity! but anyways ... it felt like we were there forever ... i guess we were just having a lot of fun ... even CJ was ... he played on the boy's side and had a really good save that even now, he still has to remind me about his supercool save. yeah coz now he thinks he's a volleyball player. mench taught him how to set ... that was cool coz never in a million years could i find the patience to teach that boy volleyball ... we started hitting lines which was cool ... everyone's hits looked like they improved so much ... it was cool also especially since no one has really been doing much since last year's season ... except for you guys who play for the base league.

in the end it was just peppering and blah. that was fun but now im sore all over. i woke up early coz i was so sore(?) haha ... man i wanna do it again today but i think i need a massage first ...

oh damn. here i go on and on about volleyball again. sorry guys ... its probably gonna be my life for a while ... =) geeze, i love it.

we rented shallow hal last night .. that dude's name is MAURiCiO! woohoo! just thought id say that ...

*hey lisa bo bisa and everyone else i havent written back ... im super sorry about that ... all the email ive gotten in the last two and a half weeks i havent responded to coz im lazy as hell ... i probably wont even reply to them today now that im reminding myself coz im too sore ... but yeah ... i got them ... im just so sorry for not getting back sooner ... geeze ... what a good friend i am eh? sorry!!

crap one more week till school ... i gotta go clean my room out of last year's junk ... hey we're seniors! ... who the hell cares what we wear?! WE'RE FUCKiNG SENiORS!